Caught in a time warp...

Have you ever been sitting their watching TV or listening to the radio when you're unexpectedly taken back in time? Back to a special moment you hadn't thought of in years... or as in my case, a memory floods back to a specific moment you've never remembered with so much detail before? That happened to me last night while flipping channels. I happened upon a movie called The Cutting Edge and it instantly took me back to the basement of my then, best friend's parent's home. It felt like I was caught in a time warp much like you see in the picture below.

Above Photo found here.

I don't often write about past relationships on my blog as it just doesn't seem right. However, I'm making an acception because last night's time warp made me really miss my friend. We shared a love of music, movies, volleyball, and life. He was there as I was beginning to spread my wings of independence. Those were some of the hardest and best years of my life. We fought like cats and dogs when we were protecting each other or didn't like/agree with what the other had to say. We called each other's mom "Mom.." We traveled together to Kentucky, Florida and even attended the 96 Olympics in Atlanta together.

For a long time I didn't do anything that didn't include him as part of my life plan. If we weren't in class or at work, we were on the phone or road driving 4 hours to spend time together. We had some crazy times and phone bills back then I'll tell ya! No free minutes and we didn't own cell phones. We're talking old school days!

He was my best friend for years and for a short time we were romantically involved. He understood me better than I understood myself and helped me through many difficult times in college. We met on my 19th birthday which was also the 1st of many times he would come to my rescue. He even stood at the altar as one of my "bridesmaids" on my wedding day. How many guys would do that? That's the kind of guy/friend he is/was.

These days, we're both happily married with families of our own and we live half way across the country from one another. There are times like last night, when thoughts of him come rushing back and cause me to think of or worry about him. When this happens, I often email him but more and more often, he doesn't respond. In fact, I haven't heard from him since May. He has his reasons, I don't know what they are but I respect for some reason he needs his distance. It doesn't change the fact that I think of him often and hope he's OK. I also hope he knows I will always be here for him as he was for me so many times. It also doesn't change the fact that I miss having him and his friendship in my life. Does that make me selfish?

Do you have someone like this in your life? Someone you've lost touch with but feel immediately caught in a time warp when you hear a song or see a movie you once enjoyed together?